Being Renewed

I consider myself a patient person, it usually takes awhile before something pushes me to my breaking point. I would not say I am at my breaking point but the Lord is truly showing me what it looks like to be patient and to continue to trust in his ways. I have mentioned before that I have been trying to find a new job. I have worked for my current employer for three and half years and I have probably not liked working there six months after I started. When I first started working there we got engaged, wanted to buy a house, and I wanted to pay for school  so I knew that I had to be a grown-up and keep working even when I did not like it at all. There are a combination of things that I don't like about my job and last year when I got my bachelor's degree I thought I would be leaving there soon after. The Lords ways are faithful and just {Psalm 111:7} and he has had other plans.

The job searching process of: looking up companies to apply to-applying-interviewing {in my case I average at least two-three times for a job}-waiting for their decision to be made, can be tiring. When I first got my degree I wanted to work for a hospital or college. I really enjoyed my co-op at Cincinnati State and I wanted to be in an environment where I knew I was making the difference in someones life {even though I know my role may not be of high importance}.

Though this process has been long and weary the Lord continues to renew me and to give me hope {2 Corn. 4:16}. Whenever I get a interview I am beyond thankful for another opportunity to be able to find a job where I can use my gifts and utilize the degree I have. Over the past 6 months I have had lots and lots of interviews, it's hard for Kyle to keep up :). I have interviewed with all the hospitals in the Cincinnati area {for more than one job at some of them}, and one of the colleges. Between phone interviews and in-person interviews I have probably had 20 interviews. 20 interviews and no new job is why I feel like the journey has been soooo long. Kyle has been great about reminding me that the Lord has my future plans in his hands {Jeremiah 29:11} and my family and friends have also been great about encouraging me.

I can feel the Lord continuing to tell me he is with me through this. I recently started a new Beth Moore devotional {Stepping Up} and here are words from Beth Moore that the Lord has been using to speak truth in my life:

"Today those of us who need it are going to accept biblical permission to have a "woe to me" moment with God concerning some difficult environments we're enduring".

"I'm reminded that God never doses off, even when for a time the air is smooth and the way is clear. He doesn't jolt awake when the earth rumbles beneath your feet. He is in perfect attendance to your every step"

"Every obstacle we face and every battle we fight on the way will be worth it"

"God's delivering us from every ounce of trial will never develop the relationship that occurs when God shows himself right in the midst of difficulty, delivering us through it"

"When our lives are immersed in Him, every ending, everything we believe to be the death of us is instead a hand-engraved invitation to a new beginning"

I am continuing to wall paper my mind with his truth and I may not understand what the Lord is doing now but later I will {John 13:7}.